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June 22nd, 2009

My Writing Teacher Lied to Me!

It’s true…

It all started almost a year ago, this was the time I was in between jobs and had 5 or so weeks off. I did some reading, tons of exercising, and writing here and there. I knew I was preparing myself to become a writer, before I made my declaration at the end of last year. For sure though, I knew I wanted to write fiction. I thought fiction would allow me to dream and become as creative as possible. So I signed up for a 5-week leisure learning fiction writing class.

“I want you guys to remember, that you are writers. Okay. Now repeat after me, I’M A WRITER, I’M A WRITER, I’M A WRITER…”, the writer teacher, who has written one novel said.

I believed everything she said to me: I felt strong, I felt I could write anything (well when I was in that room with 10 or so other people). Everyone came from different backgrounds, but as I looked around the room and noticed the confidence from the other people, who was also saying this bullshit of a mantra - I knew my life was going to be different from this point on!

Ironically speaking, I was listening to Stephen King’s audio book, which he explained the art of writing, during the time of my class. So, it was as if I was getting conflicting information from 2 published authors, one more famous and has written on the subject more than the other. I, being reasonable with myself, listened to both lessons.

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June 2nd, 2009

Video: Inspiration is Found Anywhere…

I received this video from a friend sometime last week. I didn’t think much of it, but kept watching. It reminded me of Joe Versus the Volcano. I have been inspired by many things, and now there isn’t much that inspires me. I’m more of a self-inspired person that wants to always improve and do more in life.

Yesterday, for some odd reason, I felt sorry for myself. Yep, I couldn’t believe it either. It might have been because there are things I want to do and want everything now. I can’t seem to be patient. I start thinking about my past and where I came from and have come to the conclusion that feeling frighten to do something that is different and not even knowing the direction is totally fine. Almost instantly, I started something that I have left aside for sometime. My mind is racing and I see what else I want to do and will do it.

I’ll have a post tomorrow. I just have to edit the shit out of it. I’m taking my editing game more serious and see it is something that I have to get used to.

 

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April 22nd, 2009

Novel Writing Frustrations

How’s the Novel Going?

Novel writing is frustration. I have been at it since the beginning of the year and challenged myself this week to only write towards the novel during the morning time. The past two days are going no where. I can’t seem to get a paragraph down. All I’m able to do is write about the problem with my main character, how I know the second half of the book (in my head), but not the first part. How my character doesn’t interact with enough people to give the reader a glimpse of the main character’s personality. I am totally lost and can’t seem to write without a care in the world. The way I write blog post, inspirational writing, and thought writing is the opposite of novel writing (at least for now).

The Struggles in the Past

I have been saying I was going to write a story for now 2 years. I started a couple of pages from other novels and have thought endlessly of others. But, didn’t have the courage to actually start one, like I have this year. I’m thinking of the perfection of the process and the story I want to tell. I want it to be perfect right from the jump, without going through several edits I know that it is going to take to get it right. But, damn, nothing is working and I am getting to the point of rather reading a book than write towards this novel.

My New Direction

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