Life is What YOU Make of it!!!

Boss: “DO YOU UNDERSTAND”?

Me: “Yes”!

Did I really understand? Nope not really. I have been working on this particular part of a project all day and going back and forth to my boss to get help. I was really clueless and I believed she knew that also. I then told her that I will have something for her the next day she came in. Deep down inside I was sweating and didn’t want to disappoint myself and my boss. So I did the next best thing and went home (lol, I laugh about this now).

I used the excuse that I work better not constantly working on the same project, that I had a headache, but more importantly my shift was finished and didn’t want to spend an extra amount of time in the office. During the time being home and the next day of work I really did think about how I was going to finish the work correctly.

The next day at work I went with the idea of “if I don’t know just ask as many people I think might know” approach. It would you know it worked like a charm. I got the work done and presented it to my boss and she went ahead and directed me to the next task. Honestly, I didn’t totally finish the job correctly, my graph just looked like what she was looking for, but during that day I finished it up the right way and understood what was going on with the project as a whole.

It amazes me when I see other people and myself are pushed against the wall and we find some way to complete the task or goal in sight. I have also realized that I am way too lazy and feel it is only of importance when I feel that it just has to get done. So however long I last at my current job and my next I will start to finish things fast, correctly, and very presentable. But with my side gigs, book writing, blog writing, and freelance work I will do them with what I just said and with pride. Because work will be work, well in my case that is what it is to me, but something that I truly care I will do it like it was the last thing I ever do on earth-with pride and thankfulness that I have been given a chance to do what I like to do.

This is not a rule, it is human nature. Just think about it for alittle bit. Most of the time you are right about your decision, but you change it. Then it bites you in the ass.

Don’t let your indecision and immature way of thinking get in the way of your first logical reaction or reasoning to the problem, task, or dilemma at hand. Remember that when it is all said and done you are the one experiencing the outcome of your “choice”.

As you go through life remember the good and the bad decisions you made, determine which ones were right on with your first instinct and constantly learn and keep on improving, because that is one of the ways you truly grow up.

I still haven’t got the phenomenon of the window view. Yeah it is usually a nice view and it is something to look at. But still it doesn’t matter, all of the people out there are doing something other than what you are doing. It makes me think alot about the outside and not so much about the view.

There is something else about the window view that people feel that it gives and it is respect and seniority. There are people that will get mad because someone younger or not as much experience gets the window view. To me personally it doesn’t matter. You tend to forget what is outside after being in an office 8-10 hrs a day. I really wonder though how many people have looked outside during the day and wondered what it would be like to be out there doing what they love?

Oh well, if you ask them at work they would probaly lie, but if you asked them in a casual setting they would probaly tell you the world.

Who really cares, most of the people won’t do shit about it and at times will seem like talking to a dead horse.

Just finish work for the week. Feels great being done before noon. It was something interesting at work today that got me thinking. There is a new guy there and he just finished his first week of working in the “real world”. One of our coworker’s asked him what did he think about his first week? He told her that it was fun and then she said you are such a liar. That makes me think of two persective.

#1: Coworker- She obvious knows that he didn’t do much and at times during the week was bored as hell. But she probaly still feels that way right now in her present state. At times it may that she likes coming to work, but still feels a resentment towards it. I don’t really know but oh well.

#2: The New Guy- Well who knows what he thinks but it seems that he likes it so far. Hell, it has only been a week. Nothing can really go bad in a week and still don’t know what to look for of what is good and bad about a particular company, but he will figure it out. However, he did ask me a question about people coming and leaving and I think that I lied to him already. I told him not really and that people are here usually for a long time and then they want to go somewhere else. In reality that is true, but still if he would talk to people on a keepin it real attitude there will be mixed feelings and that will only take time.

I think back of my first week of work. It was pretty fun to tell you the truth. Being on my own and making my own money. I felt that I was somebody and felt that I was making a difference in the world. Everyone was pretty cool and friendly. But I was tired and really needed rest because I wasn’t used to working those hours. Hell I still am not used to it, but that topic is for another day…

Man oh man, there is so much to life to be continuing being in a routine. Not just I’ll do this on monday, tuesday, wednesday, and so on night, but hell I will do this every single day. I am glad that I have also started this blog. I have been talking about starting and never did until now, I believe this is a breakthrough for life not just today.