Archive for January, 2008

January 31st, 2008

I really Don’t Know What I want for My Job Future…

I have alot of things figured out for my life. What I ultimately want to do, the female department, hobbies/trying new things, direction of my book, workout routine, and whatever else I think of that I don’t cringe or lose sleep over. But still that isn’t totally set in stone either. Sometimes certain things happen for a reason and we have to make up our mind on what path we will take.

I don’t even know if I should be talking about this because even though I don’t tell the people I work with my business about what I really do when I am not at work I am just paranoid about really showing all of myself. I will once I make that leap to my real passions running most of my day to day life. But dammit here I go and I don’t have any regrets for what I am about to say.

It sucks, it honestly does suck. Work that is. It is not perfect and I don’t think it will ever be perfect and I also sense that from other people that I come into contact with. I am even surprised at some people that seem like work is the thing they live for, but when you hear them saying, “I don’t know anyone who wakes up in the morning and is happy to go into work, I don’t”, it makes you wonder what they are really living for. I also get alot of people being bored when they have free time or when they call in sick. It is probably they are so used to their routine that if something is slightly different than they go crazy and don’t know what to do. Me on the other hand dream about what I am going to do when I get off while at work and would be doing something productive with my time other than watching t.v. when a few hours seems like an eternity.

Now is a new year and I don’t make new year’s resolutions, but determine what I want out of my life on the fly and now I am at a point that I just don’t want the same of what I have right now. I just don’t feel like jumping into something when I feel deep in my heart that it is going to be the same thing. I want atleast for now something that will keep me busy, something that will give me satisfaction for doing the job well, and something that will challenge me to want to keep on learning. That sounds like what everyone wants, but not everyone goes for it, hell I am not there myself yet. I don’t want this to be permanent either because I have so many things I want to do for the world through my passions that will help guide me to my purpose in life.

January 27th, 2008

What about the Writer’s Strike…

Team can not be of stars or people that we see, but a collective group of people that makes the task, job, project, or tv show work to perfection. All of us have seen what can happen when a group of people so important to getting the job done have a disagreement on something, in this case it boils down to money. We see that people are pissed because their favorite shows are not showing new episodes, also the award season has taken a shit due to the writer’s strike, and whatever else is done due to this ‘writer’s strike.

I believe beyond the tv shows not being new it is that all people matter and that as much as we glorify one group of people (actors) we don’t think about the writer’s who tell the story. What is a writer? Yeah a person that writes about something that they may feel interesting in their lives or what they experience or imagine. Something that simple, but really a challenge to get a mass audience to rant and rave about it is amazing.

The realization of the matter is that everyone is not seeing it from the writer’s point of view and feel that they should stop complaining about their work. We have to remember that everyone has a role and if that role isn’t done to the best of it’s ability or not at all than something will suffer and the mass audience will not be complaining or praising the production, but will be calling for it to be canceled.

January 21st, 2008

Started the New Year’s off with a Bang…

You can tell how the year is going to be by what you do or don’t do during the New Year times. Last year for New Year’s was cool, but really rushed, but also not crazy. However this year was another story.

I boarded a plan to Los Angeles for New Years on the 29th to spend it with my good college friend. I have gone to LA a couple of times, but have experienced something different for all the trips that I have traveled there. This time we did some of the usual things such as chill in Huntington Beach traveling around, eating fish tacos, spending some time at Long Beach Harbor, and traveling back and forth on the 405 and other LA highways. But this trip was not only different because it was New Year’s, but because I haven’t experienced something like this during this time of year in my life. I usually stay around town and plan what I am going to do for the upcoming year. Last year I went to Austin and lived it up with some friends, but this year was me traveling to a spot far away from home just to celebrate, experience, and just be however the place presented itself to me.

This trip was also the most relaxful because of the time that I spent already during the Christmas break off of work and how long it lasted. There were many times of me reflecting on my year and talking to people that I haven’t talked to in awhile. I realized that we are all growing up, whether it be to our own making, or going through the motions we are all living the life we think is right for us and not determined by our family, friends, media, or whatever outside influence that usually takes people’s live into directions that they don’t feel happy about. I am not saying that we are truly living the life we want, but we are making decisions that ultimately determine our happiness/sadness and that in itself gives a person appreciation only if they realize that.

With all the reflection it was finally time for me to really let loose and enjoy the time I was there for, so my good friend and I booked a hotel and bought tickets online for a party in LA for New Year’s Eve. We bought drinks, got our clothes ready, and made a couple of music cd’s for the drive to LA. As we were getting closer and closer to our hotel in LA our spirits started to falter because of the dirt, trash, excess amount of people on the streets staring at others and what was going on and people selling food, wallets, or whatever they had just placed without order on the streets you wouldn’t want your dog to lick. Basically the place was a dump and damn I didn’t know it was really like this and realizing that our Ramada Inn was in this location and the Holiday Inn we joked about being more expensive all the emotions and laughter sunk in. But hey there is nothing a little alcohol couldn’t cure.

Oh when you are “pre-gaming” before the biggest party of the year you start to forget where you are and ready for where you are going. We kept drinking, listening to music, ironing our clothes, taking pictures, until a couple of hours before 12 a.m. This is when everything starts to get bizarre, but all of it I tell you is true…all of it.